Juno this movie??

It touched my heart. It's sweet and real. I like this song too.




You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you’re back is the latest trend
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you
Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you
We both have shiny happy fits of rage
I want more fans, You want more stage
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you
You are always trying to keep it real
I’m in love with how you feel
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you
I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body’s swinging from side to side
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you
The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can’t, you forgive me?
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Facing Faults & Fears

"Do not think of your faults; still less of others' faults; look for what is good and strong; and try to imitate it. Your faults will drop off like dead leaves, when their time comes." - John Ruskin

I am learning slowly to apply the principles above to my own life. I strive constantly to see the best in those I come into contact with. I seek diversity and promote having an open mind. I seek balance and fairness, I'm a good listener, and I love to help people. I'm generally not the type that finds and dwells on the faults of others. I have not been so kind to myself.

So much have I assisted friends and loved ones in times of hardship and change, that I've been lovingly labeled, "The Angel of Change." While helping others, I've neglected my own needs and well being.

I've spent much of my life consumed with guilt, remorse, or regret for things that should have been learned from and then forgotten. I learned as I could, but the accumulation of past mistakes (as I've viewed them) quickly overwhelmed me and consumed my life. The guilt made it much easier to ignore my own doubts, troubles, and despair, and to focus on "taking care" of others as I helped them through their times of hardship and change. Only recently have I realized that I have used my knack for helping others to avoid facing my own fears and problems. By focusing on the problems of others, I've stopped my own personal progress in all aspects of life: physical, mental, and spiritual.

When I focused only on the needs of others, I brought some of their problems upon myself and successfully avoided my fears of actually taking a look at myself and dealing with my issues and my problems. I've gotten very good at collecting leaves.

All of this leaf collecting has helped me to develop my interpersonal skills- to the point that dealing with others' problems is, quite often, a pleasure. I delight in the challenges I'm faced with, and I take satisfaction out of the peace and happiness I'm able to pass on to others. My ability to look at a situation objectively, without judging harshly, has helped me greatly in relationships both past and present. Now, fortunately, those skills I've developed help me daily at work and contribute to the overall pleasure I take in my profession.

With these realizations comes the responsibility to face my faults, problems, imperfections with the same compassion I give to others and without judging myself so harshly that I can't move on. In the great words of a song Perry Como sang, "Accentuate the positive, eliminate the negative, and latch on to the affirmative. Don't mess with Mr. Inbetween."

Sometimes I'm me.

Sometimes I feel like I’m going crazy, sometimes I feel sane.
Some days I can change the world, and on others I can’t get out of bed.
I love deeply, and fall hard.
I think thoroughly and deeply and once I have, I strive for balance, justice and equality.
I’m fun and outgoing, yet at times I’m reserved and shy.
When I find that something isn’t going as planned, I sometimes feel let down and discouraged.
Sometimes I’d rather give up, than settle.
The people who I look up to the most are the ones that get things done. They know what they want and don’t stop till they get what they want.
Sometimes I don’t know why I can’t be that person. I try.
Am I too hard on myself?
Do I give up too easily?
Do I worry too much?
Do I do enough?
try enough?
work enough?
At the end of the day, there may be more questions than answers, but I’m glad that I’m here and I try.

Mount Olympus... Utah Style

(Not to be confused with the other Mt. Olympus.)

I always wonder how the snow doesn't slide right off the sheer face of this mountain. I climbed it once... and it was HARD. (although I hiked from the other side) I later found out that the hike has one of the greatest/fastest elevation gains of all the hikes in Utah. YEAH... I'm TOUGH!!!

They knew I was coming!!

This is one of the first signs of a welcoming committee in my new neighborhood! I already feel right at home.

More Crumbletown

My New Place

Just kidding! (about this being my new place) But isn't this building cool? I saw it when I was picking up boxes for my move. I must say, the pigeons have good taste!